Gemma Arterton

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If Carly Clarke was diagnosed with cancer in the year 2012, you photograph, how you what have the Last Days of her life could have been. Seven years on, by some cruel coincidence, she will go to her brother's side, shooting him through the same ordeal.

"I have My Own hair on my hands, on my clothes and in the tub under me As I wash, then brush, more is more.

"In The Mirror I can see my appearance change, strand-by-strand. "

Carly Clarke the is re-live your experiences as a cancer patient, showing Me One of the many self-portraits That they took during the six painful months of treatment.

Finally, she asked her father to shave The Last hair from your Head . She was only 26.

"in the past, I have a lot of hair. Now I look like a cancer patient," she says.

Six months before these photos were taken, Carly had eastside living A Dream in Canada , shooting a final year at the University photography project in Vancouver's impoverished downtown.

she had been sick for months, with a violent cough, loss of appetite and pain in the chest and back. Doctors had diagnosed her with illnesses ranging from pneumonia, asthma and warned she could suffer a Collapsed Lung on the run. But she had ignored it.

"I didn't want To Let this disease - Whatever it was - in the way of My Life ," she says.

"In Vancouver, I could empathize with those with diseases and addiction My concern for My Own life made me compassionate during The Shoot . "

Many of which you spoke, to the almost icy roads become addicted to taking strong opiates in hospital, as they were treated for serious conditions such as cancer.

Three months later, Carly morphine itself would need to be able to relieve The Pain in your chest and back to help you sleep.

Convinced of the Canadian doctors to Go Home for the skilled attention, she was finally diagnosed with Hodgkin's lymphoma - a rare and very aggressive form of cancer in March 2012. A Tumor the size of a grapefruit, had grown in her right lung and chest wall.

"I broke into tears at Guy's Hospital in London," she says. "I don't know if I would survive the chemotherapy treatment, The First at such a late stage. I was horrified. "

It was hard to take for you and your family.

"My parents felt, as their stomachs dropped. There was not much cancer in The Family ," she says.

"My friend was also destroyed on the ground and he flew from California to England to be with me. "

Back Home in Eastbourne, Carly hospital appointments and medication on scribbled schedules, a calendar, who had been not long ago Packed with Home appointments and photo shoots work.

"My Life is slowed down, the concentration on getting through each moment, drug, drugs, endless investigations, huge needles, biopsies, drilling deep into the bone, tubes down my throat, and hope for a couple of days, The Pain to end," she says.

pain from her chest was now radiates down the arm, fluid on her lungs made it hard to breathe, and she could not shake, a "terrible non-stop cough".

"plastic line through my arm, the end of medicine, fed sucks, But the healing in my heart, and try to kill the cancer, But my strength with him," she says.

"My skeleton was lost more visible from day to day, a reminder of every precious pound. Out of nothing My Life on The Line . "

to change your views of The World - and themselves -. So she decided to photograph.

"I thought That a creative outlet would allow me to step out of some, the reality for a moment or two, and think about my current trauma from a different perspective," Carly says.

Reality Trauma was after a series of self-portraits, their exchange in documenting the appearance That your life in and out of The Hospital , and their resilience.

during The Day , visited, or short stay, The Hospital gave her the freedom to use a tripod and remote shutter release, as often as she could. Doctors and nurses sometimes you have pushed the shutter speed for you.

"I thought about how different these pictures she says further down The Line , and whether or not I would still be around to tell my story",.

Carly wanted to work, to inspire others, "have the courage to stare cancer in The Face " and not let it take over your identity completely.

picture-by-picture, Carly your skin is always noticed faint, and strength to your bones, by he appearance of a "strange, almost alien".

you lost around 12kg (26lb) in the space of two months and needed regular blood transfusions to Make Up for circulatory problems were starving your body of oxygen and turn blue.

"the people are afraid to look at me. Mainly, I think, parents with children are also caused by the cancer, because she saw me and probably feared the worst for their own," she says.

"because I me, so I felt restless and anxious. "

Soon after, she found herself attending hospital so frequently, she was admitted, full-time.

is At their lowest, constantly nauseous, or asleep, would you reject the car all of the food from the clinic. She was not allowed to study in the location, and some days, too tired to photograph, yourself or phone your friend.

in the meantime, the cough was so hard, it would bring blood. And sometimes she would Wake up after a night of cold sweats, itching and drenched, As If she had showered in her hospital bed.

But then, One Day , after about three months of chemotherapy, the cough stopped. Her other symptoms started to ease also.

The Treatment was working, she thought. Biopsies confirmed: the cancer was to lose.

changed your perception of life.

"helplessness turned into hope And Then euphoria. If you are coming So Close to death, suddenly want To Live your life to the fullest. "

The infirmary was a place of pain at Home . Employees were friends, and some patients even closer.

Now, Carly would dare to the front of the room. The Aquarium in the municipal area of the municipality of attracted and patients of all ages.

An elderly couple being treated for different types of devices, leukemia, often Chemo on the same day as Carly. One Day , the man said his wife had said That it would not participate in Christmas.

"I remember hugging her and we wish her all the best - That would leave few, never my mind. "

As Carly began to feel better, she also began to connect more with The World outside.

your friend, and friends take you to lunch, sometimes a trip to Beachy Head -where the white cliffs meet The Sea and Carly would talk about The Future while watching the boats move slowly over the horizon.

Of course colleagues and Tutors, they began to realize That her photographs have an impact on other people.

they were Not only capturing the physical and emotional effects of cancer treatment, But does not show That it will always be Scary - it could be positive, Carly says.

"Looking Back at the pictures I had taken, it made me stronger, because in these photos I was confronted with an end-of-life situation, But a part of me still believed I could get through it. "

Carly started to show your work to other cancer patients and took portraits of some of them in the municipality. It was a way to start a conversation or put a smile on their Faces .

Carly photos captured The Mood of those who had a successful treatment, " If it is true That a simple smile, small gestures of help or a kind word can change how a person feels and brighten your day, and have a positive effect on every cell in a body, then a positive photo graphic story will help change someone's life," says Carly.

"He is the crucial factor may be strength in someone, the mental, and on your will-power enough to go through The Suffering , in The Hope That it will soon end, and That , in my opinion, is what helps to keep you alive against all Odds . "

As Carly treatment came to an end in September 2012, could you survived the look back through every phase of your trip, in 15 rolls of film and 150 photos, and they say the cancer.

your image with the title Last day of chemotherapy was on the shortlist in The Portrait of Britain Awards in 2018 It was a moment to celebrate, But back to The Family Home - to "piece her life back" - was not easy. If you took back your boxes of unused medicine, not more she felt sad, she was in The Hospital .

"The Hospital staff and some patients feel Like Family to me because we had a very close relationship for many months. "

A few months later, Carly flew to California and stayed with her boyfriend for most of The Following year.

they returned Home , several times, and visited The Hospital for The First of their twice-yearly check-ups. Every time she came back, and looked around for the old Faces : nurses who had treated their patients, they had shared moments.

"We looked at casually, each other and all of a sudden tears came To My eyes. "

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Source of news: bbc.com